four weeks

So he had to leave earlier than expected, because of a death in the family, so now I won't see him for another four weeks. I can totally do that. We've had to go through something like this before but maybe even worse. We couldn't really talk to each other. Now it's a little different because well, we're engaged. So many it's A LOT different. I'm just a bit sad about not being able to hug him and have him next to me. Not gonna be fun. Just gonna have to rely and depend on the Lord for that. I couldn't make him stay, I totally understand why he had to go, so I'm ok. I'm in between happy but sad. Happy because I'll get extra sleep (I'll get rid of these ugly bags under my eyes, hopefully), extra time and extra wedding things done. Sad because he's just sooo far away. It'll hit me harder later...

SO, while he is gone, I need to get a lot of wedding things done before I head over there to AR by the end of October. I'm kind of excited but frightened at the same time.

first thing on the list: Send out the save the dates! (which means shortening/finalizing that huge guest list....here it goes)

que?

I don't think it's hit me yet....I'm getting married. I'm very happy and excited to start this new chapter with my other half...but it doesn't feel like I'm actually getting married! MARRIED. Everything I've heard or everything you think you should feel, hasn't hit me yet. I'm about to spend the rest of my life with another person. Someone who loves to be with me. Someone who wants me around all the time, every day. Someone who wants to share a bed with me. Share a house with me. Share their future with me. Someone who loves me for who I am. For ever. It may be that it hasn't "hit me" yet because I still can't believe this is true. Marriage is something every girl dreams and fantasizes about. Is this really happening to me? Does someone as great as he is really want to spend the rest of his life with me? Me. Leslie.
What have I done to deserve this? This is all too good to be true. How can someone love me so much? That they want to spend the rest of their life with me. This is all too great. I'm so in love! I'm so excited! I don't even know how to react!
All I know is that it's all thanks to the Lord. He's done all of this. There is no way I had any part in making all of this happen. Maybe only in taking Him as my Head and Person. I don't even know if I really did do that, but I do know that I could not have done this alone. I wouldn't even know what to do. All I knew is that I liked someone, and I wanted to get to know this person, but I didn't want to waste my time if he wasn't "the one." I'm not as young as I used to be, I can't be taking my sweet time on something so serious like this. I knew I wanted to get married with someone who loved the Lord and someone who would bring me back to Lord in all situations. I wanted to be clear before I invested any time on this person. So I prayed...for half a year. We kept in contact, I would see him everyday. We prayed as a team once a week. & he somewhat had an idea I liked him, BUT I never told him. I was not about to put myself out there if I wasn't sure about this. It wasn't until I finally gave it all to the Lord, pretty much gave up on him, stopped praying so much for him, and felt ok about ending these feelings, that the Lord started working. Three months later, it all begins again. This time, on his side.
That's when the courtship began, the waiting began, and the praying continued...

Fast forward 10 months later and we are engaged to be married December 4th, 2016

&& I don't think I've ever been happier in my entire life

day one

sucked.

today was just blah. Didn't feel like doing anything. I was at least able to go for a bike ride, for about 3.75 miles. really trying to lose those 15lbs by next year. down 5, 10 more to go. just trying to get through each day without losing my cool. i don't know why I get moody like this after we decide to stop for a bit when I know the Lord is with me through it all. He is everything I need and supplies me with what I actually need. Just have to remind myself to turn to Him and seek Him, daily.

goodnight. orientation tomorrow at 8

organizing

well i've never been the most organized person in the world but i've always admired those who had the time to even organize their homes and make it pretty! i've always thought about that TIME problem that everyone has. I am currently in school and working full time (or the full time they allow me to work which is 30hrs...boo) so I never have TIME to do anything, so I say. But of course i have time to watch netflix or tv x] SO ive been obsessed with Pinterest lately and Blog lovin' with all their wonderful organization posts! and I was reading one of my favorite organization blogs called "I Heart Organization" and she posted a quote from one of her favorite bloggers, dont remember the name of that blog, and it was about organizing and time. she explains that the reason why she organizes, even if it takes so much time to do, is so she wont waste time later looking for whatever she needs. All of us waste time looking for that something that we remember putting somewhere but isnt there anymore, which is SUPER annoying. So i have decided to start organizing certain areas in my house (i am currently living with my mom and bro). my first project ever was the "junk drawer' in the kitchen which my mom & i totally trashed out and organized with tiny boxes. it has so far stayed like that for quite some time so i've been very happy about that. and that has motivated me to organize other parts & rooms in my house, yay! 

TODAY I plan to kick-off the organization train in my garage! We have a huge garage, so huge that we have split it in half- a couple living on one side and the other half is ours for storage. But when ever we open it, it stinks and looks like a disaster so we have to close it right away. my mom has attempted to organize it once, and it worked for about a month. our family travels, and camps a lot so we take things out and back in a lot. and it's always a pain to look for something we need and climb over other things to find something. which is why i plan to start organizing it today! I will post some pictures of before and after sometime in the future.

have a good day!

New Year calls for a new blog!~

ok, not really, it's still the same blog name & blog person, me, but it's technically a new blog cuz it'll actually have posts for you to read! :) some may wonder why I would want to write so much when my Literature major expects me to write 5-6 pages once a month already haha good question, but one of the many goals for the year of 2013 is to blog more often ~

the cousin & I - Wendy at Don't Lose a Moment - have been following a couple of new blogs since the start of this new year - 12 days & counting - that have inspired us to blog & blog & blog! The blogs I am following all share moments of their lives, special projects, & anything & everything. Many blogs I've read have mentioned that the reason to blog is to do exactly that. To share special moments in your life you want to remember later in life. I love that idea because I have a bad memory & I later want to look back at all my fun, happy moments. So here's to a new year and posting more! *cheers*

I am so excited to use this somewhat as a diary, no, journal sounds more adult ;) I will mostly share about my days at work with awesome coworkers
             at school learning about Literature and other interesting topics
             at church gaining more and more of the Lord
             & with family who I couldn't live without :)

so let us beginnnnn

My  name is Leslie, middle name is Josephine, as you might have guessed. & today is January 12th 2013, as you already might know....

I am currently recovering from a cold, I like to say, because I am able to breathe  through both my nostrils - yes!-  I am stuck in my room at the moment. My brother has friends over & I don't intend to have them see me in the sick mess that I am right now...


Today I will probably stay home all day because I would like to clean for tomorrow's college meeting here at my house. I loove cleaning...I have never said. But one of my goals for this new year is to get clean & organized & stay that way! I've been reading lots of blogs on how to stay organized & get organized! I am loving it so far!
My first project of the year was my work desk. It was a huge disaster! I had papers in drawers from 2008-2009! How crazy & lazy is that?! One day I decided to look through some of the folders & THROW AWAY (recycle) papers I didn't need anymore! It felt soooo awesome! so I couldn't stop there. I continued to a different folder until I cleaned out the whole drawer of papers I didn't need. So then I moved on to the papers I had on my desk & organized those too. I have been loving going to work this past week, except for the fact that I was sick & wish I was in bed.

My next project is my room....TUN TUN TUN. I am rarely in my room. I love hanging out with my mom & chatting with her about everything - she's my best friend & I love her so dearly! So I'm only in my room at night with the lights off on my phone or Nook, & in the morning getting ready for the day. If there's a mess, I usually don't see it. BUT from now on, I want to be clean & organized, like I've mentioned. So my next mini project is my closet! I have shoes I don't wear anymore and clothes I've forgotten about, so I will clean that out! so excited ~ just gotta start...oneday.

I think that's all for today...enough writing for one day. Hope you all have a great weekend!

ttyl,

Leslie Josephine

volleyball

volleyball has been a HUGE part of my life since I was in 8th grade. I love it, i forget about everything else when I'm playing. I not only love it but I'm also good at it, and know I can get far with it. But the Lord has a whole different plan for me. and I totally understand. So i know not playing volleyball at LBCC this season is the best choice for me. I feel guilty for leading the coaches in with me playing, but I really thought i was going to play this season. I was super excited. Until a coworker from a different department wanted me to work with her. she asked if i was looking for a promotion, and i said yes, and she said shell give it to me. Good and bad. Good cuz i get a promotion...bad cuz i can't do volleyball. Obviously work is more important than volleyball...so I chose work. now i'm kinda depressed but I know i'll get over it. anyways time to go bye

11:09pm

hello hello

it's kinda late so i'll make this a quickie! ;]

classes began about 2 weeks ago, so i've been going to school every wednesdsay. which reminds me, I need to read 2 chapters before tmrw's class but I don't have my book! i ordered it last week and it was supposed to arrive today! hopefully I get it tomorrow before class ugh

wendy is almost done moving! tomorrow she gets all her furniture and will start unpacking! yay i'm so excited! her bday is coming up too, gotta get her present! ahhh i have some ideas though. hopefully she likes em!

been playing vb the past couple wknds, and now I'm starting a league this Sunday night! so excited. went to open gym with one of my teammates and I think i did pretty well! still got it~

been really into blogs lately. they're fun to read and inspire me to continue writing. sometimes i feel like writing is a waste of time, but it helps me so much! it's good to say things i'm feeling out loud

anywho, i'm getting sleepy, goodnight!